Confession...

I had a heart to heart with my pastor a couple of months ago.  He recommended (very highly and firmly recommended...) that I remain absolutely single and free from even thinking about entering a relationship for one year from the date of my divorce, which was November 16th.

I only know that it was November 16th, because Bethany had her ultrasound on the 15th, and I remember that date.  And that my divorce was the next day.

 I'm weird.

But I've said that.

Anyways...during that time, I'm healing and growing closer to God.  I'm learning to let Him meet all of my needs and be absolutely everything to me. 

And I don't know that it will be an exact year.  I have no clue on the amount of time.  I'm honestly not worried about it.  I'm enjoying this journey and growing more and more in love with our Lord.  At some point, He'll lead me somewhere, and I'm confident I'll hear Him and be obedient.

He is, after all, a pretty awesome God.  And He's been really, really good to me.  Better than I could ever deserve, and I'm grateful. 

The very least I can do is give Him everything and let Him lead every step I take.  :)


So...the confession part...

I'm fine with being single.  Some days, when I'm feeling stubborn, I  plan on staying single.  Forever.  I kinda like the control.

But I loved being a wife.  I want to be a wife.  I want to have a husband I respect and adore that I can love and admire and care for and cook for and have four more babies with.

;-)

Hey...this is my blog and I'm being brutally honest.

And since this is my blog, I am stating for the fact that my standards regarding men are so flipping high now that only a man chosen by the Lord Himself is going to pass.  'Cuz I am never, ever going through a divorce again.  And if I fear ending up unhappily married...I would much rather stay single and serving the Lord.  

Those are the facts, folks.

But...

Back to my confession.

I am kinda...

sorta...

Maybe, just a little...

And for the record, I don't know how it happened, because I'm not even a TV watcher...

Crushing on THIS guy...

And totally addicted to "Psych" on USA, which doesn't pass my standards for appropriate TV.

Not much passes my standards, which is why I'm having multiple problems with this.  I want to watch every episode.  I'm currently working this one out in my head.

But anyway..no worries.  The show just makes me laugh, which is something i look forward to at the end of a long, tiring day.  :)  And James Roday is nice to look at. 

I'm sure I'll be over it next week.